Tuesdays Are My Least Favourite 

Hi. Welcome back. How are you? 

I want to talk about how some days are just harder than others. I think I’ll start by explaining how hard of a day the six year old in my life had last week. 

She had a rough day at school. Girls can be so sweet and so terribly mean. That particular Thursday, one of the girls “used mind control to lead [her] friends away.” So she was left with no one to play with for that recess, and they carried that game over to the next recess. 

After school at her grandparents, she was frustrated by her younger brother, who leans more toward physical exclamations than verbal discussions. Her patience was tested, and her spirit was bruised. This all came to a head when her dad walked in during an argument with her brother, and they both got reprimanded. She stewed a little through out the evening. And finally that night, as we settled onto her bed for reading before bed, she said she wanted to tell me about her day. 

And oh my friends, can you not recall that hot anger? The repeated efforts and rebalancing of emotions. The difficulty of articulating and pinpointing what it was that had your cheeks so heated and your eyes stinging. 

Children’s lives. D and I said, smiling at each other this evening. So full of paradoxes! D said. And I nodded.

But our adult lives aren’t much freeer from such paradoxes. I too, am reaching those frayed ends of patience, with my health these days. This whole idea of having a balanced physical and emotional and mental well being? Only achieved via some paradox of health code. A code I can’t get figured out right now. Sometimes I make peace, and accept that I cannot fight the current that is IBS. Sometimes, the handicap that it places on my life, has me irate and the impatient perfectionist in me rears her head. 

It’s a delicate balance. I want to accept what I can not change. And change what I can. 

Oh. And why do I hate Tuesdays so much? Tuesdays have no Motivation Monday vibes, they aren’t a celebratory half way mark, they aren’t the day before TGIF, they aren’t a Friday. And Tuesdays are definitely. Not weekends. That leaves them with nothing to offer the week, and I think they should just count as nap days. Argue me in the comments. I’m in the mood 😏 Just kidding. 

Here’s to not fighting the ocean. Cheers. ✌️

Mani Monday – Mental Health Monday

Good evening friends! I have something a little different for today’s Monday post: beginning to talk about mental health. 


Here’s the mani! Cute right?! And my sweets craving was satisfied with these Larabar Bites. 😍 So simple. See the hearts tutorial on my last post!

My mental health, is a tumultuous little environment. I was given the diagnosis of PTSD after meeting my psychiatrist over two years ago. I was suffering from panic attacks, anxiety ridden days, and depression. I couldn’t make it through a work day, without excusing myself to cry in the bathroom. I felt as though I had lost all control of my emotions, and I was scared, and I was exhausted. 

Turn to two years later. I am happy frequently. I understand my anxiety and depression better. I am treating the two, and focusing on getting my diet and physical health balanced out. The more I read and research, the more I see the connection between mental and physical health. 


And on particularly hard days? I focus on the most important three! 🤗

More mani and mental health Mondays to come! Stay tuned! 💕

Saturday Snippet

Indulgent Weekend Smoothie:

1/2 cup full coconut milk

2 tbsp organic nut butter

2 tbsp hemp hearts 

2 tbsp maca powder

1 tbsp flax seeds

1 tbsp matcha powder

1 tbsp turmeric

2 tbsp cocoa powder

1 tbsp organic cinnamon honey

1 ripe banana 

1 cup mixed frozen berries

1 cup almond coconut milk
Add ingredients to blender. Blend until smooth. Serves 2 adults and 2 kiddos. Enjoy! ❤

I had a lovely Saturday. Smoothie to kick it off, outside time as the weather warmed up out here, and a hot cocoa (recipe on my instagram) that melted my heart and an evening of sheer relaxation. (Hence the late #Saturdaysnippet)

Anyways, here’s my favourite Valentines 🙈😊, and I hope you have had an incredible weekend. 

Morning Moments 

“How are you?” I asked, sorting leftovers into Tupperware this morning. 

“Very good!” He said. 

“How’s your heart?” I asked. 
He paused, “Full!” He responded. 
It’s incredible to me, the love that I’ve found in my life. 

I keep uncovering little gems of joy, and these sweet, precious moments remind me to slow down. To enjoy these moments. And to savour them like a perfectly brewed coffee! 

Mani-Monday!

My bestie J and I were daydreaming about manicures the other day. She mentioned a heart on her ring finger … or maybe some crescent moons… and she traced a half circle coming out from her cuticle.

So full credit rights for this idea definitely go to her!

Now without further adieu:

Ladies and gentleman. That heart manicure you were day dreaming about? Completely attainable.

The Beauty Department gave me the knowledge for this adorable, simple little manicure.

My colours of choice this week?

Revlon: Romantique and a Gold glitter

(Big ugly flower in the background is optional.)

So as The Beaty Department so beautifully puts it (see the post here) … the goal of a heart with nail polish? Is to make two circles just touching one another, and then pull that polish down a little into a point.

Ring from Sutton Smithworks. Click on the image to check out their Etsy shop.

I got fancy with it and added crescent moons with the gold. Can you blame a girl? That sparkle though. 😍

Mug front Anthropologie.

Mm! Now the only problem? Finding a cuter manicure for next week! Have a lovely Monday folks. 💅🏼

Sunday Meditation: I Am the Sea.

I find it difficult to relax. Now, you might giggle and roll your eyes at that… but truly. Even being on medication for anxiety and depression, I still find myself needing to center. The medication isn’t carrying the whole load here… I need to put some work in too. But that’s just how I feel about it.

 

What I like to do with my stress and tension at the end of the day/ week: is a yoga session to exhaust any negativity. I want to work off the petty annoyances of the week. I want to turn those piddly moments into my own strength and wisdom. Once I’m good and weary, I plop down on my meditation pillow. (Oh my god it is the most amazing thing. Keeps my mind focused on the breathing and the thought stream, and not on the fact that my foot just fell asleep and I can’t feel my bum cheeks anymore.)

 

I’ve jotted down my most recent meditation for you, if you’d like to give it a read!

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I close my eyes.

Breathe deeply in through my nose and out my mouth.

I connect with my body, and observe.

Relaxing muscles from my toes, up to my ankles.

My ankles are now pooled in relaxation,

I breathe a little deeper into my tummy.

My calves are little creeks, running water up the hills of muscle; down.

to my knees. Past pebbles and intricate little knots of sinew and bone.

My knees are swirling black pools of water, strong.

I breathe into my thighs, relaxing each strand of muscle and each joint.

My thighs are rushing rivers: fueled by creeks and whirlpools.

These rivers crash into my rib cage, and flow and settle backwards into my abdomen.

Swirling and calm and wise.

I am the sea.

Wise in my great passage of time logged, and most importantly: patient.

Regardless of the weather today, my tides will crash and smooth the bones of

My shoulder blades and hip bones. Crafting finer curves and lines, out of sheer

Patience.

I am the sea.

With grand waterfalls collapsing from shoulder blades into the deep wells of elbow joints

and rushing streams down my forearms to pool in my

open palms.

Open palms: Accepting of the good things that I deserve.

I do enough. I have enough. I am enough.

I. Am the sea.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Waves lapping beneath layers of skin.

I am the Sea.

Saturday Stock Up

– or. An IBS Pantry/ Fridge


Grocery shopping day! D and I hit up our local grocery store every other week. This week, we made a special effort to fill the lower (biggest) portion of the cart with veggies and fruit. It wasn’t hard. We let taste buds and soup and salad goals guide us. Yams, sweet potatoes, romaine lettuce, radish, kale, gala apples (from B.C.!) and the rest. Next we stocked up on pickles, pickled beets, and sauerkraut. Bell peppers, grape tomatoes and cucumber rounded out the salad options. And we finished it off with a brief walk through the aisles for things like: kitten food, frozen berries for smoothies, turmeric for smoothies, tuna, rice crackers and some chicken, eggs, and gluten free sausage for protein.

And now. Our pantry and fridge look like this!

 

 

 

 

Canned beans, vegetables, tuna, salmon, potatoes, sweet potatoes, coconut milk and yams and a couple other treats…. this corner cupboard completes our staples in the kitchen.

Get ready folks! The recipes are collecting and they’re going to be shared soon!!!

Until then, we are resting this evening… in preparation for Super Bowl Sunday tomorrow.

Super Bowl Sunday Menu? Chicken wings breaded with gluten free crumbs and coconut flour, popcorn (drizzled with margarine and sprinkled with salt!) and gluten and dairy free cookies. Oh that will be what I dream about tonight.

I hope your Saturday finds you just as contented and smiling. Good night friends!

 

 

 

Hello World

Want to know something nerdy about that post title? 

A “Hello, World!” program is a computer program that outputs or displays “Hello, World!” to the user. Being a very simple program in most programming languages, it is often used to illustrate the basic syntax of a programming language for a working program.

* Wikipedia though

 There’s your something New learned for the day!

And here’s 21 questions, answered!  I got the questions from http://www.ysislorenna.com if you’re interested in checking out her corner of the universe. If you want more, check out my About page!

1. Are you named after anyone?

     The girl in a play that my new high school was putting on when I moved there. Well, that’s the story behind my screen name anyhow.
2. When was the last time you cried? 

     Today. Sometimes frustration results in leaky eyes for me. 



3. Do you have kids? 

     There are two children who are in my life, and I care about them very much. They are not my own, but I’m so honoured to have them touch my life like they do. 



4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself? 

     I’m happy to say yes to this
5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

     Yes, but subtly
6. Will you ever bungee-jump? 

     Nope. Hard pass. 
7. What’s your favorite cereal? 

     Honey Nut Cheerios. 
8. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

     I notice and gauge their greeting smile. From warm and genuine to rushed and false. 
9. What is your eye colour? 

      Brown. With an amber glow in the sunlight if we want to get vain about this. 

10. Scary movie or happy endings? 

     Happy endings. It fuels my daydreamer sensibilities

11. Favorite smells? 

     Coffee, fresh baking, pasta as it is cooking and the faint smell of gasoline. 

12. Summer or winter?

     Summer

13. Computer or television? 

     Computer

14. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home?

     Thompson, M.B.

15. Do you have any special talents?

     Story telling, writing and findng the silver lining. 

16. Where were you born?

     Abbotsford, B.C.

17. What are your hobbies?

     Finding new ways to organize, playing with the children in my life, doing yoga and occasionally journaling. 

18. Do you have any pets?

     A tuxedo cat named Audrey and two kittens!

19. Favorite movie?

     Crazy, Stupid Love. 
20. Do you have any siblings? 

     Four half siblings

21. What do you want to be when you grow up?

     Patient
Thanks for reading a bit about me! Until next time you lovely people you ❤

Please feel free to try the 21 questions for yourself! I’d love to know your answers 🤗